Blog Of A Teenage Pessimist :)

LAST BLOG EVER. IT’S FINALLY OVER!!!!!!! I’M DONE HIGH SCHOOL FOREVER. SUCKAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

I have 2 days left of high school. HOW WEIRD IS THAT? I know everyone always says that high school is the best time of your life but I really can’t wait to leave this place and never set foot in another high school ever again. I have 3 exams which I probably won’t study for and will be awful to write, but who cares. I’d write a 12 hour exam right now if it got me out of high school.  It’s so unreal. I’ve spent the past like 14 years going to school, with the exact same people and now it’s all over. No more pointless “jump through this useless hoop because I said so” everyday, and no more seeing the same kids I’ve gone to school with since kindergarten everday. Everyone’s moving on and moving out. I still haven’t decided what I’m doing yet, but I wouldn’t be me if I had things planned out and figured out on time. I’m just gunna do whatever makes me happy because that’s what lifes about. I’m not ready for university and I’m not gunna go just because it’s the right thing to do, or because it’s what everyone else is doing, or because it’s what I’m supposed to be and expected to be doing. There’s only 1 time in my life when I have no responsibilities and can do whatever the hell I want, and that’s now. I’m sure as hell not spending it going to school. So that’s where I stand 2 days away from finishing high school…who knows where I’ll be in September!

As of this blog, I’m officially on track in term of blogs. So what will I discuss for my first blog “back”? The disgrace they call prom. I think prom is such a joke. Girls spend an entire day making themselves look like something they’re not so they can take pictures and go eat dinner for like 4 hours. Most girls spend probably close to $1,000 on prom. Seriously? Is that all you can do with your money? It’s so funny how everything thinks me not going to prom is like the worst thing ever. If prom is the highlight to your year you seriously need to re-evaluate your life. The part I am going to though is the hotel party after prom There was a lot of drama and confusion but basically me, Lauren and her bf, Sabby, Gardgyms, and Brando are sharing a room. We only told the hotel there was 2 ppl in our room so it would be cheaper, but now we have 6. Lmao! We’re so smart and there’s NO possible way this could backfire NOT! We’re totally just asking for it. So all in all prom is ridiculous but after prom is the shit!

Final entry of my 5 part saga! Unit 5 is “The Novel” but we haven’t done that one so I’m skipping to unit 6. ISU! *Insert scary movie music here* So my book is The Trial and I haven’t gotten around to writing the essay yet cuz I’m massively behind. But I should be able to write it in a night or two cuz I’ve already read the book. So hopefully that will happen early next week. It’s on the list of things to do! Haha. You know what I realized? Anyone who stumbles accross the wiki site is one lucky SOB cuz they’ll stumble across dozens of essays they can easily open, save, and steal! How clever. I can’t wait to be out of high school so I can sell all my grade 12 assignments/essays to idiotic grade 11s who I know are as lazy as I am. So in a nut shell my book was alright and my essay will be amazing. And in the process of trying to find a book to choose at the beginning of the semester, I literally looked up every single book description and added a shit load of them on to my long list of books to read. I never read during the school year cuz there’s too much shit going on and too much other reading, but honestly I can’t wait til the summer so I can read my face off. I forget what books other than The Trial I ever so desperately wanted to read but I remember there were a lot! I wonder how many books I’ve read in my entire life. Probably a couple thousand. I think I’m gunna aim to read at least 15 books this summer. That seems like a reasonable numberrrrr to suit my busy life. Plus I’m gunna have to budget a couple thousand hours of sun tanning to get to an appropraite shade of non-casper. SAGA OVER. I’m now caught up on my blog a logs and I just have to write one a week starting now (which means I have to blog again tmm) and alls well. ALLS WELL!

Saga almost done! Unit 4 of 5 just so happens to be poetry. So it’s basically at this point that I’m now now regretting my idea to blog about all 5 of the units we’ve done so far cuz it makes me realize that I don’t wanna blog about my epic failure that is poetry. But basically me and Lauren were doing Patrick Kavanagh, and on the day of our presentation I got deathly ill and Lauren had to present alone. And the worst part is I got sick the night before but couldn’t txt her cuz it was too late so I had to wait til the morning of. And the really shitty thing is that poetry presentations are different cuz it’s basically all about analyzing poems so if someone’s not there, it’s not like the other person can analyze their poems cuz they’ve never read them and don’t know anything about it. So that was really shitty and everyone was pretty pissed but I mean, shit happens I guess. So now I’m in charge of the dummies guide and I’m gunna do it after I’m done alllllll my history week somtime this week and just put everything I was gunna present on there. So no one will have to miss my beautiful words of wisdom lmaaaaao. NOT! All in all I’m not really a fan of poetry so I don’t really enjoy this unit but I think the Sylvia Plath presentation was really good. Maybe her poems are just appealing to me. Who knows! But there’s not really much else to say about poetry except we should be done that unit soon. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

The saga continues! On to unit 3: Modern Drama. So we’re done 3 movies out of 5 and so far so good. A Streetcar Named Desire was the first one we watched and it was really good. The speakers sucked shit and it was impossible to hear anything so I decided to spend my time sleeping instead, so I missed a lot, but what I saw I liked. I finally know what the “STELLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA” is from. I don’t really think the movie was that “deep” but I guess that’s just me. The second movie was Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf? and who ever made that movie deserves to be shot. It was an awful movie that no joke, gave me a migrain just listening to it. So I watched like 10 minutes and slept through the rest. It’s a deep movie and all, but obnoxious and dramatic as anything. That main drunk woman is the pinnacle of everything that is wrong in the world. We just started watching the third movie (Long Days Journey Into Night) and we’re like 10 minutes in and I like it so far. Some pretty serious revealing/foreshadowing in that baby. I think my favourite movie we’ve watched so far is A Streetcar Named Desire. So now I shall answer a question (as directed by the ETS website) for the first two movies. We haven’t watched enough of A Long Days Journey Into Night yet to answer anything on it yet. BAM:

1. Albee (Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf?):

• Are George and Martha better off at the end of the play?
• I’m gunna say George and Martha aren’t better off at the end of the play because now that their self-created illusion is dead, so are they. If it was possible for them to live without illusion, they would have before. They won’t be able to function as a couple anymore without the whole facade they had before. Each will end up resenting the other for the shitty life they have and the broken and disfunction within that shitty life. In a way George and Martha were happy before in their own way for their own reasons, and when their reasons fall apart, so does their happiness.

2. Williams (Streetcar Named Desire):

• Are there any moral or ethical lessons to be found in ASND?
• I think there are moral and ethical lessons to be found in ASND because the entire movie revolves around fighting against something and mistreatment. Everyone in the movie is fighting against something, and everyone in the movie is mistreating and being mistreated. It also shows that “what goes around, comes around”. Everone who dishes it out gets it right back in return. Success and failure also plays a huge part into the whole movie like we discussed in class.

Part 2 of my saga: Elizabethan drama. Me, Lauren, and Alyssa (or to be grammatically correct: Lauren, Alyssa, and I) were in a group and we did the play Edward 2. It was an okay play I guess, I don’t really enjoy plays and it’s always SOSDP. Same old shit, different play. I think the presentation went really well again, everyone seemed to be into it so that was cool. To improve we could have definately made sure the projector worked with Alyssa laptop and been a little more technologically organized. I’d like to lie to you and tell you I just forgot to do my weekly progress reports but let’s face it: I did everything the night before. Typical Ali J. And I don’t think Alyssa posted our Dummies Guide yet so hopefully that’s gunna happen soon. I still have to write my essay which I’m scheduling to do sometime next week. I’m still on the search for a thesis which is unfortunate. We also forgot to do a video…as it seems everyone else did except Lital’s group. Maybe we’ll do one soon. Better late than never right? I’d say the presentation that I liked the most was the King Lear one. Not so much that I give a shit about the play but the video thing is so mind blowing. I’m really creative and artisically challenged so anyone who’s good at that shit is the coolest person ever in my books. Hence me being in love with the King Lear presentation. So in general Elizabethan drama was boring as hell but my groups presentation went well two units in a row so that’s all that really matters to moi. Fin.

I’ve been ever so busy that I haven’t blogged in like 5 weeks. So to catch up I’m gunna blog 5-ish days in a row to make up for it. I hermitted religiously for the past like 3-4 weeks to finish an entire semesters worth of adult ed and have therefore fallen waaaaaaaay behind in absolutely everything. Tis all good! I shall prevail. But most importantly: I’M GRADUATING! YAY ME! If there was a “like” button to that statement, I and everyone I know would “like” it 2305u290532 times. So I’ve decided since we’ve gone through 5 out of the 6 units of the ETS website and I have 5 blogs to do, I’mma do a blog on each. And so begins my blog about lit crit! So me, Sabby, Renee, and Shelby were in a group together and we did feminism. I actually learned what feminism is, which is a plus. It’s kind of one of those concepts I always thought I knew what it was, then I realized I actually didn’t know, but at that point the lie had gone too far and there was no going back without a 100% embarassment rate. So for our first presentation of the semester I think it went really well and everyone seemed to enjoy it. Our group had no problem putting our slideshow together or presenting it so that was easy enough. To improve we could probably do a better dummies guide (starting by spellimg dummies properly..lmao) and make sure everyone in our group contributed equally in the oral part of it. I think the group that had the most interesting lit crit presentation was post-modernism. But they had a pretty cool subject to begin with so they had a good leg up I suppose. I think my favourite type of lit crit is probably historical. It’s really easy and straigt forward which I highly enjoy. But that’s about all I got for blogging on lit crit so I bid you adieu for today’s part 1 of 5 saga of blogs.

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Is it just me or has 13 weeks flown by? Feels like we haven’t done anything, even though I know we have. That’s probably because the bulk of things are still yet to happen. Anywho this week I’m actually gunna talk about ETS related crap. I’m sitting here in SSC bored as crap and since I just finished my ISU book and have yet to come up with a thesis, I’m gunna make a list of observations/themes/questions/possible essay topics..

• Dystopia
• Everyone is always on trial, will be judged, and will inevitably everyone will be at some point guilty (without knowing the rules)
• Can’t go through the gate unless you know the gate is for you
• Self doubt
• The reader is much like the man at the gate; there is a meaning in the story for everyone just as there is one gate to the Law for each person
• Alienation
• Kafkaesque
• Does K resemble Kafka?
• What is K’s guilt? Does he believe he is guilty?
• The role of women
• The role of physical deformities
• Why does K not have a last name, when other characters do?
• The use of metaphors/allegory
• Does the justice system represent Kafka’s domineering father?
• During the doorkeeper scene, the country man is free to leave but stays at the gate, why?

I realize this probably makes little to no sense to anyone, especially because no one is probably reading this, and if they are, they probably haven’t read my book. But if you are reading, and you have read The Trial, I would greatly appreciate you sorting through my crap and telling me my most promising lead! K THANKS!